I'm very sad right now. I don't really have anyone to talk to. I wish I could talk to my parents, but neither of them know how to listen without trying to control a situation, steering it to an outcome that comports with their own values. To me, that's more manipulation than listening.
I'm not just sad, but I'm also confused about my own feelings. I wish for once that I could see things clearly to avoid making a wrong decision, but alas, my fears and needs always pop up to distort a situation.
I'm not just confused, I'm upset because my honor has been insulted. The last time this happened, I was also very hurt.
I'm not ready to talk about it yet, but I thought, since you guys are kind of my friends, that this was the right thing to do.