Were these women that you had relationships with, or just random adventures?
Some people believe things that are strange to me. But most people need to believe in something in order to make life meaningful. Once that belief is shattered, so is their existence - or their reason to exist. If it means that much to believe in something, I would never begrudge you of that. In life, people must do what makes them happy or fulfilled.
Just don't push that shit on to me.