Ok, so I'm a 19 year old 6th-form leaver who has spent the last two years doing crappy low paid jobs. To be fair, I am the most happy I have ever been, but that is more a reflection of how much fun my teens were. I am still unsatisfied with my life.
The fact is I know, and am constantly told, that I am intelligent and therefore worthy of better things.
My problem is that I HATED school. I hated having to learn what I wasn't interested in. I hated the yes sir/no sir approach to teaching. I hated that to be a good student I had become extroverted, as I was painfully shy at the time. But most of all I hated the mind-numbing, soul-destroying memorisation of facts. Nothing is more boring than sodding facts.
So, along with a hugely dramatic home life, this led me to effectively give up, at some point I just chose to keep my head down and not try. And so I just waited till I got home to lose myself in hours of escapism.
So now, several years later, I realise what a mistake I have made. But it may not be too late. My grades are not fantastic but they should see me through to a lesser university. I could study Philosophy and English Lit, which are subjects I am interested in--as they would have to be.
Unfortunately, my confidence in my academic ability is non-existant. Although I am quite able to theorise, understand and create. It only takes the sight of a revision book to make me nervous. It's almost as if I relate such things to an unpleasant period in my life so my unconsciouse wants none of it.
I do, however, think higher education would be more to my liking than the spoon-feeding approach adopted in high school.
Anywho, what I would like is any helpful knowledge about university life/education that you think might apply to me, or indeed that would be helpful to anyone. It would also be awesome if anyone could give an inspirational account of doing well in university after a mediocre lower education. But I suppose that would be too much to ask for.