I was almost robotic until I was about eighteen, then it all came crashing down, somehow.... I don't know if i'm going to congratulate you or not; because while you made your life more enjoyable, you also made it a lot harder.
Ah, the robotic days. I had a few years of that myself when I was in my teens. I became very cold, detached... and to be honest, I functioned really well... though I was surely missing the boat a lot of the time. I've come to the conclusion that those years were wasted. I don't remember what exactly "defrosted" me, but I'm very grateful. I wouldn't live life any other way.
I feel. It's what I do with it that may be different than what an F would do... I really don't know. I only know my own experience. I've never been inside the head of someone else before. Sometimes I don't even know what it is that I'm feeling, or why I am feeling it, so I analyze to find out. Occasionally, I come to the conclusion that my feelings are completely irrational, therefore they're disregarded. But oddly enough, by and large when I'm feeling something it's important. So a lot of the time I "follow my heart" as long as it's fully backed up by my head. This has never steered me wrong.
So I guess I look at feelings as potentially being the "voice" of facts that I have not yet taken into consideration. They're important.
LMFAO, that is not the first time I have heard that one.
I have never tried the stuff (and don't plan too), but had to baby sit people before. More than six people have told me, this must be what you feel like all the time. This was said while they were on it, so I don't know how much credence to give that.
ha, and i just had my 18th yesterday.
Basically what i wanted to say is my emotion overrode my reasonings (principles, beliefs, etc) not for a moment but for days.
It just reminded me of when i was young. Back then I was pretty close with my feeling side, i sometimes cried watching dramas, sensitive to people's feeling, etc
i still have no idea how i became this way lol...
sadly.. i can't find anything cute... or sexy...
for me its like "oh.. i guess is kinda cute.."
Hmmm. I think that will need a massive prescription of pornography, followed by swift cessation and limited access to females. You can follow that up with gay porn to really say where your interests lie or go out a bit and talk to some girls. If that is to large a leap romance movies will suffice. If you see no improvements in two weeks you might not have a penis
My cold, snide, intellectual life is just a veneer, behind which lies the plywood of loneliness.
It must definitely be the years of studying women's body and clothes + life drawing.
when i see naked people, i see work.
But to think of it, i think there are things i find cute.
For eg. "little things" some girls do, i find it adorable. But that must contain element of plot, chara develop, etc.. so for those, like i said before i read novels. But for that one moment of "awee" i must invest like 3 hrs.
As for the porn movies, i dont think i will ever watch them until they start coming up with more original plots (but that's impossible)