I can identify a bit with the OP--I think it's why I've always been drawn to acting. If you don't feel a tidal wave of emotion all the time, it's nice to have outlets that let you experience it. I love the emotional turbulence in a good play, but I know that IRL, I would hate the unnecessary arguing and suffering. It's a nice, scripted way to go emo.
agreed emotions can be beautiful, but i want to experience emotion as an art form. i want my life to be an art. yet i haven't done anything yet.
hmm this probably won't make much sense to most people.
I garuntee that you feel every day. You drive a car? You use Se. You decide what show you want to watch? Fi. You decide what everyone in the room probably wants to watch? Fe.
don't get me wrong, i feel everyday for sure. But whats different was the intensity of the emotion, that it came to the point it disregarded many of my principles and beliefs. And my Ti was unable to get a hold of it.
last time i felt like that was about 4 yrs ago, which i supposively "fell-in-love." But i think i became momentarily retarded due to excess alcohol consumption that month.
My mind is starting to dominate once again though. i think its a good experience though. Since due to my Ti/si and Ti/ne working together 99% of the times, I sometimes truely forget what i want.
Similar story here.
I was a hardcore Ti that was emotionally detached.
The only emotion I had was when I felt passionate for my interests, or inspired by creativity, but rarely with people.
This totally changed when I met my INFP/ENFP gf... who showed me a whole nother side to being human.
I ended up feeling horrible for being so emotionally detached before to the point that I went into depression and my gf couldn't stand me anymore and left me.
I tried so very hard to build up my emotion with people, to empathize and to bring out the best of others. It was an endless frustrating struggle in which the harder I tried, the harder I failed. I became so empty from trying to change myself so progressively.
How do you NT's find the balance without destroying your ego?