!!! I mean most of us don't think we're angels, it's probably for that reason too . I do like to help people, it makes me sad to see them sad, so in a way relieving them if possible relieves me too emotion-wise.
If I wasn't affected by them I don't think I'd lift a finger. You're completely right, concerning my case that is.
I remember having that dilemma last year and wondering :
Do my gestures of kindness come from "the heart" or are they simply "principles" I try to follow?
If they did I should feel good about helping all the people I have so far in my life but I don't." Of course it's not like we never have any emotional connection, sometimes it does "move" us and not just our "principles".
I concluded I was actually pretty "self-interested" in that way underneath it all...it kind of disappointed me at first but I got over it, Psht I'm not Jesus , I'm a human being. (But maybe that's just you being mature and honest with yourself?..wait how old are you?(Sometimes it feels wrong talking this way to someone over 30 )
That's why some descriptions making us seem like goodhearted angels are a bunch of bs., in my opinion.