I know what are you saying. You want to be more active and stuff, but that means leaving the forum time to time though right? So I'm thinking like best way is to talk outside the forum (really close friend or loved one) and be more extroverted, doesn't that help in solving the problem?Hi, I see what you mean, I think for me I can be totally extroverted at times, and other times totally introverted in a group setting. It really depends on my mood. I mean if I am happy, or excited about some new idea for making the world a better place..., then I am totally out there. On the other hand, when I am feeling kinda low, kinda not understanding myself, or just sad because of current events, or feeling like "who knows if my dreams will ever happen", then I'm much more introverted, cause I don't like projecting these feelings onto others. Or maybe because I feel that I am no good to them anyways in this state, and that keeps me much more to myself.
Although I do tell a selective few my troubles...
I don't know, I have a hard time keeping long lasting relationships too, but if the other person keeps at it... then a freindship is born.
I can talk small talk with like any person I see, it's kinda scary on the one hand considering the main subconcious motivater that makes me be able to do this is...
I want to connect...nect...nect *echo*
I don't know, I just want to feel connected with people at all times, at any given time.
is something wrong with me because of this?
I think thats one of the reasons I'm on this forum. In my day to day I see people, but it's not enough for me, cause my ideal job would be out there, doing something meaningful, something out of the office (at least most the day), interacting with people, solving major issues, and it being real-time. Something that gets your adrenaline going, something exciting, even dangerous(?) to some extent.
What I do now, is sit in a cubicle all day, in front of a computer which is extremely frustrating for me.
So anyway sorry about all the ranting...the point is that this may be why I'm on the forum. It helps me feel like I am connecting with people.
Maybe you are an enfj that is just a little under the weather right now, or maybe you have never been given the chance to be in your ideal enviroment, and therefore never felt compelled to speak your mind. Maybe it's a low confidence issue, who knows.
Which could be, if you had parents that put you down a lot, I know I have been working on my self-esteem forever- I mean it's gotten much better, but the effects of childhood are very hard to just get rid of, (I mean if they were negative).
So, I have some humble advice I would like to give you; just get out of the house for an evening with some, even one close friend, and go a little crazy...
It might help you get out of your zone, and put things in prospective.
Good luck, dee