I've got insomnia too, but no worries, after few years it will be your personal trait that can be used for all kinds of things. :nod:
Life's nice, if you consider the alternative. Besides, the only reason you and me can feel lousy about not keeping busy, is because the western world has stolen the resources for our well-being from the third world countries. This will not go on forever, so don't worry. Maybe there will be reasons to worry later on.
(Really, I can't see why I haven't felt bad for months now. It's really weird. I don't even do anything and its fine. So.. all I can say, cheer up, life's good, or if it isn't, it's usually tolerable..)
Originally Posted by ajblaise
Seeing how you get that feeling when you're not occupied, I'd say it's a extrovert thing. I never get it at least.
No. I have had it. But, there's lots of stuff you can do, so I have some stuff to do while bored. I'd just want to do something more meaningful, but then again, I can pass my time this way too. Today I've been doing vector art, and later on I will go pick apples on back yard, maybe fix my bike. Nice weather.
^ Insomnia's horrible. (Even though I wish I never had to sleep) Plus. It's not healthy for you :S I'm going on my 4th day with 12 hours sleep total. F pills and drugs of any sort. I can handle this. It's all mental.
I also try to keep myself busy, but you know. For me, procrastination trumps life's ambitions in the big picture. I'm too damn distracted with the details and possibilities. So half the time nothing gets accomplished. (Damn P ) Then move onto another and so on and so forth.
It's those in between periods like now where I am feeling alone that I feel this way and I ask questions like...What's the point? Why are things so complicated? Why are people so stupid? I was wondering what it would be like to be so simple. Wishing I could dumb myself down enough to follow and not do my own thing, but it's damn near impossible. Lots of self analyzing. Meh. Beneficial in the long run I suppose. The self analyzing I mean.
Tbh sometimes the alternative doesn't seem so bad, but I would never do anything to bring it upon myself. It's not in my nature. Just a thought.
You can't always do it right, you can always do what's left.
Thoughts rearrange. Familiar now strange. All my skin is drifting on the wind.~
Most Ns go through this at some point, usually in our teens. I don't know if you'll get over it, but I did. The world is pretty stupid. "The Devil's gonna get you, man. Just realize it, then take it out of your head." --KMFDM