Hello all, about seven months ago I was in a class with with a group of friends (mostly heavy Ne-users, myself an outsider) and I began to strongly suspect an INFP girl in the class liked me. She behaved in a way that seemed more than just friendly to me, she playfully teased me and touched me a few times, did weird things trying to get me to touch her, and I caught her staring at me a few times. I was trying to figure her out while in the class with her and decide how I felt about her.
When she flirted with me, I found it very fun and exciting, and based on some descriptions I read, she was flirting as INFPs normally do. Since I was uncertain about her at the time, and I didn't want to make her uncomfortable with what I feared would be unwanted flirting and touching (non-sexual) I inadvertently seem to have behaved in a very stand off-ish and cold manner. Around the time our class was ending I decided to try and pursue her and invited everyone from the class to a movie and pizza for my birthday about a month after the class. I know it wasn't direct, but I wanted to see her in a group setting to hopefully have a chance to confirm if she liked me before asking if she wanted to date.
Interestingly, she was the only one not in attendance and instead stayed home to make crafts.
It was a few months until I was able to see her at a social event. Towards the end I got enough courage to go sit down by her group and she got pretty quiet and nervous when I did. When she did speak (someone asked when I was graduating) she said "So, (name), your going to be a junior next year?" Unfortunately I didn't think before I spoke and practically yelled "No!" at her. I could immediately see the hurt in her eyes and she looked down right away.
Later the group organized a game and to progress she had to say my name but instead she nervously said my brother's and someone corrected her before she went to a different area of the party.
Then about a month (two months ago) I saw her at a volunteer project and was assigned a position next to her. Up until that point she hadn't said a word to me although she had no problem talking to my brother. When we were in our places I started a conversation with her just saying her batman pins were awesome, and I spoke enthusiastically with her a bit until we had to resume our work.
During our work she bumped into me, and while I thought it was just an accident at the time, it may be of note based on some INFP romance threads I've read.
When work calmed down she basically searched my brother out and spoke with him, but I was able to join the conversation due to proximity. She did acknowledge me in conversation but her focus was pretty much entirely on my brother.
When I was talking with her I had a natural smile the entire time and asked her about herself a lot, and I made sure to only say goodbye to her when we left.
When she flirted with me in class she seemed to have her wall down and she could cut right through my barrier and I honestly felt like she and I were very connected. But when we talked at the volunteer activity she seemed to have a wall erected again. I'm very fearful that my initial coldness and perceived insensitivity may have kept her from ever being unguarded around me again.
When she's free and doesn't have a wall up she's the most amazing and beautiful girl ever. Most girls who have liked me in the past all seemed shallow and like they just wanted a boyfriend and that I just happened to be suitable enough for them, but she seemed different. I've never really felt this strongly about anyone ever before.
She's very special to me and I would appreciate any insights or advice other INFPs might have. Also, if she and I do start dating, are there any ways I can make her feel special and loved? I want her to be able to open up to me emotionally and I can really relate to her Fi and I want to be able to comfort her if she's feeling down and connect with her but I can't do that if she holds back her emotions.
I've thought about just telling her about my feelings next time we see each other but I don't want to scare her. I also don't want to just stand by and let the opportunity of she and I being in a relationship together disappear.