i've been having a real issue. recently i got into a fender bender in a parking lot that dented my rear bumper. ultimately, i wasn't at fault, but it looks pretty bad cause we were both backing out....
okay, to explain, as i was halfway out of my parking spot, i realized that another car was backing out at the same time. he/she had a small head start, so about midway as i was backing out, i stopped and let the other driver go ahead of me. when he had left, i continued to back out and moving into my turn when a pickup truck directly behind me decides back out into my bumper. however, this driver had moved after i had, and was probably going too fast, and probably didn't notice me because he was in a big car, but because we were still both backing out in a parking lot it's legally a double fault.
anyway, i recognized that considering the situation, i technically had the right of way and had fundamentally done nothing wrong. it was a freak accident and yet, despite that i still am racked with guilt over it. this is my 3rd car, and i was determined not to hurt this one, and i had taken considerable effort in improvement and yet this still happens to me, even when i was looking out. logically, i should not feel guilty and yet, suddenly i'm overcome with sense of failure at my inability to avoid it.
is this an nf thing? i can't help thinking that i shouldn't be feeling this way... but i can't not feel this way at the same time.