Greetings everyone...first post
I'm in my 40s and it seems I invite ridiculous gossip, rumor and innuendo, STILL. I thought I would be less shocking and controversial as I got older, but it seems to have intensified. All this year, I feel absolutely bludgeoned by the shadiness of people who don't know me yet seem to delight in picking apart every aspect of my being. This summer I have totally isolated myself. Besides running my biz, I have become a bona fide hermit. I refuse to talk to or see anyone. I feel like my privacy has been invaded and aspects of my life have been twisted for fodder.
Sometimes these idiots will email me phishing for information to dispute or confirm the ridiculousness. They think they are so subtle. Ha! Other people's subtlety feel big & obvious to me, so I'm constantly hit by their passive-aggression and fakery. I feel the only way to respond to the absurdity is to return their passive-aggression, DOUBLY.
I feel like my intuition is on overload. I know too much, and it's a bloody burden. There are no other INFJs in my life who understand. They don't have the capacity to see what I see...until minutes, hours, years later. I've made the mistake of talking about things others weren't ready to hear, and they hate me for bursting their bubble of security.
Anyway, I know I'm probably not making sense, I just felt I had to put this somewhere.