No matter how nice I am to people, I get negative feedback from people who tell me "you're lazy" and "you got your head in your ass" and "you gotta be the most amoral jackass I've ever met!"
More diplomatic people tell me I just need to "pay more attention to what is around you and multi-task better."
My problem has been that I am either at a point of 'zero-focus,' where I am completely blank and just exist, or I hyperfocus on one detail of one task to the point everything fails. I've gotten to the point that I edgily push people people away and I only want to be alone all the time. I am finding interacting with others to be very quickly draining. I just want to say to hell with helping people, I just want to watch the world burn. I still need to sustain myself though, no matter how miserable and unhappy I am, so I'm asking for help to boost my performance and maybe scrape together some cash to at least help myself and perform a random act of kindness to the occasional passer-by. I still have a heart, you know?