I'm not sure what I'm looking for with this post, but I work in a field where I try to help people fighting a terrible disease learn what they need to do to get the best quality healthcare possible. I've gotten two promotions in the last six months and have been doing really well professionally. Now this last promotion is turning out to be something absolutely different from what I expected and I feel so profoundly disappointed and feel this sense of grief because what I'm supposed to accomplish is such a good and noble thing, but now I'm not really given the tools to do the job justice. I feel like I'm just a token person put on the project because I have a good reputation and when I'm honest about what I can and can't accomplish, no one really wants to hear it. It's like I just crashed face-first into reality--that a lot of people don't really think this project is nearly as important as I do--that maybe we're doing it to please a higher up person in our organization. I don't know how to handle this reality crashing into my idealism. I'm so disappointed and I don't want anyone at work to ask how it's going because now I've learned from management that the only correct answer is some variation of "Great." I feel miserable and part of me wants to take back my acceptance, but then I feel responsible to the people I'm trying to help to do as good of a job as I can do because maybe even if it's not enough it will impact them in some helpful way. It's just so disappointing and I'm having a hard time coming to grips with it. My manager is such a difficult person--angry, insecure--and I'm spending more time managing her difficult personality and her dislike for a consultant that we just signed a contract with (to the tune of a few hundred thousand dollars). How do I manage this? I'm always a positive and optimistic person and now I don't want to even say hi to anyone. I just want to bury myself in my desk and get as much done as possible. Does anyone have any suggestions or insight?