I don't like being an INFJ today.I am constantly being misunderstood. We had this in class exercise where we were given a list of traits. We had to choose a certain number of things from the list that we felt described us the most, mingle with our class mates, and find a group of people with the majority of the same list factors. I couldn't find anyone. I ended up in a group with people that has one or two of the same factors but I didn't feel connecting with that group. At least not as connected as the other people in my class.
It was so depressing. I felt so left out and abnormal. To make matters worse I have to do a group project with these people and I know we are headed in the wrong direction the only problem is in our group meeting I had a hard time articulating exactly what was wrong with our project. Another group member kept interrupting me every time I tried to explain myself. She dominated the group meeting and everyone else just went along with what she said. I felt so patronized and misunderstood I lost my confidence and backed down. After doing more research I know if we continue with this course of action we are going to fail so I have to say something. I never thought of myself as this non-confrontational but apparently I am. I also feel like I sold myself out. I knew I was right from the beginning but I allowed myself to be dominated by someone else because I didn't have the backbone to go against the group.
I feel like such a whip what other people think shouldn't be that important to me. I feel like I just got smacked in the face with the reality of who I am. I never though of myself as being that complacent. I feel like I lied to myself my entire life. Like I wore a mask while looking in a mirror just so I could say I liked what I saw. I pretty much learned I am a self-righteous whip. I have all these convictions and strong beliefs that when pushed I find it hard to stick with. I am misunderstood and alone. I am not unique but abnormal and I really hate it right now.