Has your NF belief in the inherent good of other people, screwed you over royally before?
I have been dealing with gender confusion lately, and I am pretty sure I am transgender. I won't expound further, I wrote about it at greater length in a private blog, it's just a set-up detail for the larger story anyway.
I told an ex who I am now friends with I was dealing with these gender issues. Besides her, I have only told two super awesome and long-time friends (plus my mom), so it's clear she was very much within my circle of trust.
At first she was totally supportive and nice, and even offered to help me with the transition. I thought to myself: What a great person, most exes are all bitter and shit, people are wonderful if you just give them the chance, etc, etc.
Well, tonight she told me she saw a fake Facebook account with a display picture of a trans women who looks like me. She said it must be someone from my hometown doing it. She then informed me that they are adding "everyone from my friends list". The exchange after that went like this
Me: How do you know they're adding all my friends? The fake account only has one friend right now.
Her: Alisha [her friend] told me.
Me: How would Alisha know?
Her: I dunno, I guess she just figured it out.
Me: (Internally thinking: are you KIDDING ME?) Externally saying: Well thanks for the heads up, but I need to get some sleep, good talk, blah, blah, blah.
So now, this fake account is going around outing me and ridiculing me on Facebook and commenting "SLUT" "PANTY THIEF" on pictures of me that friends posted. Luckily she has no proof, so people will probably think the account is crazytown bananapants, but it's still upsetting someone would do this.
And I can't believe I didn't recognize this sort of dark weirdness in her before, despite knowing her for quite some time. She was just telling me last week how I am so naive about people's intentions that she suspected I had aspergers (she kept insisting I did, and I guess it's possible, but I don't think so). I feel like that was foreshadowing. Am I just oblivious to the fact that everyone is laughing at me/tricking me? I always seemed to get duped by people, because I assume they're telling me the truth, because I used to think people are basically honest. Some e6 I am!
I keep ending up in horrible situations with no idea how I got there, so I am beginning to think it's some sort of blindspot/shortcoming on my part. The pattern is too strong to deny.
I'll admit, this is more of a self-absorbed, muddled rambling, but I think it is somewhat applicable to NF issues. Do you guys get betrayed due to your optimism?
I feel like most NF's are too intuitive to be fooled though.