(Hey, I'm sorry I've been making so many threads lately; I hope I haven't been doing anything wrong by doing so ._.;; )
Okay...so I'm an INFJ, and I've determined that--despite my purportedly lesbian inclinations--that I'm practically asexual. I've never been in a physical relationship with anyone before (mainly because I don't like "how it feels", as if I'm being invaded or something).
However, I have this male friend (a fellow INFJ) who I can communicate with almost effortlessly and never get bored hanging around. I realized...I'm becoming emotionally attached to him, possibly 'that way'. I've flirted with him before and openly discussed the possibility of me entering a relationship with him (he's 17 and I'm 20, so I'm waiting until he turns 18 before I even TRY anything).
Nevertheless...I just can't seem to produce a physical spark. It's like...I let him give me a footrub, but there was this nagging uncomfortable feeling in the back of my mind the entire time. The same nagging uncomfortable feeling happened when he put his arm around my neck when we were in a movie theatre, and it just felt...GROSS. That's the only way to describe it. (Since I've never had something like that with another woman before, I don't know if it's just the fact that I have a disinclination towards the male body, but I'm going to assume it's related to my asexuality).
But it's just so weird...I FLIRT LIKE A MADWOMAN. Like...when speaking about my emotions, I am not NEARLY as uncomfortable, and don't feel violated at all.
Could this be my Inferior Extraverted Sensing at play? If so, is there any way I can help improve this so that I can have a remotely maintainable relationship? (If not, it won't be the end of the world; I just want to know WHAT is causing this weird phenomenon??)
EDIT: Oh, and I should probably mention that I'm diagnosed with Aspergers when I was 9 years old, so it's something I've been familiar with for over half my life; I actually fare very well socially, since I can empathize with others on a deeper level to make up for my apathy towards following minor social cues and popular trends. However, I was primarily diagnosed because I am very sensitive to certain noises/smells/textures, had trouble understanding rules in organized bureaucracy (i.e. school) when growing up, and am very easily made anxious when surrounded by too many stimuli (socializing and/or being in a noisy environment such as a party). Just saying...this might be a contributing factor to the physical side of things... ^^;;