1. my Ne was not recieved well at a particular point in childhood.
2. parent Fi, to protect him, hid him away from public.
3. i never completley go insane, because my Ne still escapes in private activities (playing guitar by myself, drawing, writing, reading, dreaming)
4. but the bottom line is that Fi the tyrant needs to let Ne show more in public...im a reluctant introvert at the hands of Fi the tyrant...
5. If Fi would stop being so over protective, and let Ne run free (like when im at my happiest in public --impersonating, acting, drawing ironic parallels where there really shouldn't be, dancing...) then i wouldnt be constantly searching for an "acceptable" way to extrovert.