DiscoBiscuit
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Oh, yeah; me, too--I can relate to that whole shebang. When I'm in a cheerful mood, it's easier for me to "fake" or at least exaggerate a positive attitude toward other people.
Is it right? Maybe not, but here's some balls-out truth: a bit of 'politicking' is kinda necessary in this world.
I try my damndest not to do so with the people who are at all close to me, but sometimes it's inevitable. "I'm fine" is a way for me to say "I'm still processing something negative and I'd rather you not pry, thanks!" But often they end up picking up that that's what "I'm fine" means--or, even better, I can just outright state the latter because I can eventually trust that they actually won't pry. Wow, amazing!
That's why I have such a land mine disposition around here sometimes. If you brighten my day I'll let you know with a positive response. I'm not going to try to make you think you had more of a positive effect on me than you did.
This is one of the places I can try to be completely honest with myself, and I figure I might as well be honest with you as well.