I don't know if it's a calling. My strongest desires are to explore, to create and to nurture. I like to try different ways of living to broaden my bank of experiences. I don't want that just sitting there unused though, I need to create something out of it. Though there can be a long lag between having a realization and making something out of it. And mundane details of life often get in the way. But I try to keep my life as streamlined as possible so that I can absorb and then create. I am also very drawn to nurturing the people I care deeply for. I shift into another gear when it comes to protecting and being there for the people I love. I have sometimes wondered if I'm fully alive at other times because the surge of energy is so great when I'm engaged in nurturing someone I love. I'd like to express that more widely and have long thought I'd end up taking care of children on a larger scale when I'm older. I would like to be a foster parent and to work in an orphanage. I just feel like I have a lot to give in that respect.
Career wise or whatever you think your calling is.
Life is meaningless, we give ourselves a purpose. I think I was meant to be a lover but I can't even get that so what's the point of living. I don't think anyone really figure it out. There are guys in 50s who still don't even know what to do with their lives.
I think I'm meant to teach. Whenever I teach a concept to people, I switch into a different mode and am more fulfilled and just kind of lost in the process.
I actually double majored in college for high school teaching and also for computer science. I left with 1 degree (comp sci) and about 150 hours of coursework, 1 year short of the teaching degree. It turns out to have been a pretty good decision though. I've been working full time for 12 years now and the high school teaching isn't exactly what I want. I want to be more of a college professor type or possibly run my own tutoring/teach program on some level. I was even thinking of setting up some Saturday classes to teach kids (not sure what age) about programming.
I also want to start going back to school at night here and there because if I even want to teach at a university, I feel like I need more than my BS, I need at least a masters and maybe phd I think. If I start working on it one or 2 classes at a time within the next year or so I'll be ready one of these days.
I feel a calling to "light a fire" in people - it's what I'm skilled at and what fulfills me. I am good at aiding people in finding their internal motivation and helping them develop plans to act on that. I have not yet figured out how to transfer that into a career, however.
I discovered this during my job as a tutor. I enjoyed the subjects in and of themselves but what I was better at (and what I found more important) was helping people unearth personal motivation to connect with and accomplish their work.