It has been a while since I posted here. My life took a big hit last year & I pretty much collapsed like a tower of sand. I saw (logically) a big opportunity to kind of 'fix' those things I didn't like about my self / life in general but I have had this pervasive anxiety since that has made me almost unable to do anything but cope with the stress of going through the motions. So, I feel different (less of a wreck emotionally) but don't have any clue whether or not I'm 'better' in any way. I have also lost my natural optimism that says I am making progress towards something meaningful. I have projects around me, but I find myself seeing them as tasks on a list I need to check off.
I have been in a kind of recovery mode but there have still been a lot of random awfully stressful events going on one after another. (Example: plumbing went out for 2 weeks & I had to stay in a hotel, juggle pets at home with jack-hammering going on & get through 14 hour days at (med) school.) I just need some ideas for relaxation because when I get stressed I definitely obsess & any idea of what I 'want' or what might 'make me feel better' just drops right out of my head.
I think the whole thing has sunk me deep into Ti - land. I don't talk about how I am doing anymore (Sometimes I feel like it is pointless & at other times I feel like I've depleted my sources to vent).
I just want other NFJ's to relate if they've experienced something similar, and maybe some ideas on how to relax during short breaks (I don't get much else right now).
Edit: I just posted this & realized my avatar is still 'pancake astronaut'. I loled a bit.