Hi new here!
I'm struggling with myself right now in the area of being "walked on" and not standing up for myself. I was, well am in a relationship with someone that lied to me about his past, in an area that I have been burned in before and he was aware, and he did a couple of other douchewaffley things as well.
I love him, beyond the moon. In a way that makes people barf. I feel like I'm in a Lifetime movie, one of "those stupid chicks" that just won't let go of the bad guy.
Everyone I know thinks what he did was inexcusable, they see nothing but trouble coming from this guy. I am sheepishly still enmeshed with him.
I know there isn't anyone but me who can decide if forgiveness/staying together is right, but I tend to be an uber forgiver.
I always see the good person, I see everyone on a spectrum, we all have a shitty dysfunctional side. I tend to give chances, to always see the good, always believe the best can come of anyone and anything.
How do you really clearly see things in order to make good choices? This heartache sucks, but what I've experienced on a spiritual/physical level with this person I have never known with another. I'm not child, and I was married for years. I don't want to blow it if this is like "the big one".
I know I sound cheesy. But still......I don't want to be self destructive.