Well, as you might maybe already know I am a pretty solitary person. There surely are reasons why I have few contact with people from my past, and my few friends I have we don't communicate as regularly as in other typical friendships (although we see each other at least rarely).
That is all an issue for itself, but I notice it gets more and more difficult for me to get any closer to any people, especially new people. For example there are other students at my university with which I have to work in a team for some months, so you would think that is a good chance to get to know at least some persons a little bit. My issue here is that I have always that mindset that I don't want to impose my company on someone, especially when it is a group of people (for example in my team work now most team members were friends with each other before already, while I am totally new). So I wait for any hints that they might want to talk about anything besides study related topics or just getting to know each other in some way, but obviously I get no real ones. That is not only so in my current team works, it seems to be always so when I have to do with people I don't know yet.
Now maybe I should be just more "offensive" from myself, but I know people are often annoyed when someone who is not really belonging to a group forces himself on them without really showing it to the person. I mean, I have often heard people talk about exactly such cases behind their back often enough, and I don't want to be like that.
It sometimes feels to me like everyone on this world has already a ton of friends and doesn't want any new friends because they are already full of them, and just some people like me sit around alone :/ Then I notice how other people seem to get friends so quickly and naturally with each other that I feel I must be just invisible to others. I got somewhat used to it actually, but I would prefer if my situation was a bit better in that regard. I mean, I don't expect to become the super popular guy with 500 Facebook friends spamming me (somehow I feel some people might think that is few, haha), but I would like to just have at least some a bit more regular contact to other people.
I don't know exactly anymore why I write this here, because I don't believe someone here can help me about it really.