Not sure if this is the place to post this but I'll keep it short and sweet. I am a 26 year old nurse 2w3 ennegram. The first time I took the MBTI I scored as an ESTJ. I am NOT an ESTJ, though for a long time that was what the type of person I aspired and pretended to be. I was a very bad actor to say the least and practically became agoraphobic in the process of trying to be someone I was not. Looking back at letters I wrote during that time I am completely horrified. Honestly I seemed like I had a personality disorder. Like.. it was BAD. I would be all weirdly aggressive and demanding then go home to my messy apartment, hide under the covers, hyperventilate and smoke weed for two days straight. I think a lot of my behavior had to do with being severely abused as a kid by my ENTJ father and me trying to emulate him. Well, I cut him out of my life and began the journey of being more true to myself. But that pretending to be a J thing just kept coming up. So for a long time I tested as an INFJ despite the fact that I never premeditate my actions, I am always late for social appointments, I much prefer people to approach me and even if I get a vibe from them that is not inviting I will flee the vicinity. Whenever I try to feign Fe people just don't like me.
Before I learned about MBTI, while I was going through my changes, I began to hone in on my vibe and "go inside" myself when I felt negativity from others in order to protect myself. I have always been called weird or odd by people, usually in a loving way though I resent being called this because I don't think it is very nice to call anyone strange, weird etc... and I think it goes to show how misunderstood I am
I have had many INFJ friends and I always found them to be condescending to some degree and apt to giving advice which is not like me at all. I typically don't like giving advice because I am far too aware of my own shortcomings so I generally don't feel qualified. Even when I do give it I often second guess myself. I dunno, the more and more honest I become with myself the higher I score on the P scale. I would prefer to be a P. J's are too rigid for my tastes. I tend to be pretty spontaneous although I don't mind making plans with someone I really vibe with.
I dunno, what do you all think? Any INFP's that used to test as ESTJ's or XNFJ's? I guess the 2W3 is kinda rare for an INFP though. So much for being short and sweet!