This topic is pretty much my biggest challenge in life. no joke. alrighty:
- first off I would agree with the statement its not perfection so to speak but gaining skills.. or honing them... haha.
-I have been called a perfectionist by my close friends and family members. By everyone else they say I look very very focused. probably true. no no i take that back... its 100% accurate
I dont know exactly why I have this desire to immediately amazing at everything... but I do. I've been known to just remove myself from like reality and focus/obsess on whatever it is I want to accomplish. and yeah like others have said I have gotten anxious and beaten myself up over imperfections and uncontrollable natural errors.
-When I'm working on school work, guitar( both focused and relaxed-- depends) , art work( more relaxed), projects like woodworking or mixing music I'm generally really focused on what im doing. mainly because I want to complete it to
the best of my ability and its probably pretty important to me at the time.
- to relax and not focus on perfection I listen to music and dance around haha generally with my dogs.. they are rad.
- I also like I said above paint with music on for like 3-4 hours soo thats kinda meditative and relaxing.
- reading, if its a really good book for fun that can be like a vacation.
- I like taking baths, that is less stressful and near impossible to perfect in haha. I also listen to music in the tub.
- I write in my book or blog. I mark these though as rants, because i have poetry and songs in my books too, which im not too strict with form ( thinking about the content and images/ emotion is important sooo i do take time to put them together)
- Sometimes I get in the cleaning mode if I'm really bored or procrastinating from school.
in short music, painting and moree music... ohhhh and tea!
I love tea, its cold here soo warm drinks help
I think thats it. but yeah I would say a few years ago i really struggled with perfectionism I used to be in synchronized swimming and alot of rowing + being closeted. I really thought I needed to create and maintain this immaculate image of myself for others. so they wouldnt talk about me and judge me etc etc...
- But now its just kinda stayed in my little projects and school work. I've gotten much better with my image and my own identity and in general just being myself, whatever that may be. But holy moly did it take a while and alot of reading and i guess introversion/ introspective analysis. also a few bad therapy sessions... they said i was frustrating and stubborn. In short I needed to figure myself out.... myself.
- you may call that perfection, like how ive developed but i see it more as creating a more mature, positive and healthy self. I used to be brutalllll mainly to myself but i guess indirectly it affected others..
- sooo anywaysss that was probably wayy more than anyone wanted, I just felt alot about that topic...... haha. clearly. alrighty.
byeeee.