i'm still somewhat like this i think, ten years on.
Originally Posted by Marmie Dearest
ultimately i just want to a playmate, who i can
trust to step up if he should ever need to.
Madly in love after so many years of sterile complicity, they enjoyed the miracle of living each other as much at the table as in bed, and they grew to be so happy that even when they were two worn-out people they kept on blooming like little children and playing together like dogs.
— One Hundred Years of Solitude
yes. huge difference. especially if you're used to having preset milestones
Originally Posted by skylights
your entire life, and that age range is usually the transition period of going
into the world that no longer provides those guidelines (ie from school to the
real world in the physical sense, but also maturity wise).
what i learnt is that i just need the humility and time to figure stuff
out for myself, before i can involve anybody else, this includes lovers
and offspring. or else it's just resentment waiting to happen. younger,
i had much more audacity and believed i could take anything on--immediately.
there's something wonderful with that kind of recklessness, that
innocence, sometimes i miss it.
just need time to see, to believe, and observe. it's just as important
as the interaction. when i know it's something good, it's because i
recognise the patience that i suddenly have for it, it's a very bizzare
kind of gentleness that i see in myself which feels almost exclusive
with that very virtue.... something like that... hee.