i'm kinda head over heels for an ENFJ (this type is like a magnet for me) but there's no reciprocation possible. am currently half-looking elsewhere, half-concentrating on other things, and half-illogically-dreaming that one day i'll wake up and the world will have turned upside down along with my crush's sexual orientation. and yes, three halves make one whole in ENFP-land, you just have to overlap them correctly
I'm single, happy enough being alone at the moment, for an extrovert I'm also pretty solitary and contented that way.
There's only been one girl in the last couple of years which I felt like I wanted to be in a relationship with and nothing happened, I'm not annoyed about that because its better to be able to say that than that something bad happened, at least that's how I think about it. I think I still feel strongly enough about them that if they decided to make a come back and start something I'd not reciprocate but if they went their own way I could deal with that too I think.
Its life, sometimes I get philosophical or spiritual about it and think about the various religious life options open to me but I dont know, the celibacy thing wouldnt bother me, I dont believe that poverty/simplicity would either, perhaps obedience but not too much but I think that like a lot of other things ultimately it would disappoint like a lot of other things in life which I had high expectations for.
"How dreadful!" cried Lord Henry. "I can stand brute force, but brute reason is quite unbearable. There is something unfair about its use. It is hitting below the intellect." ~ Oscar Wilde - The picture of Dorian Gray