I need some advice, encouragement or hope.. or something. I thought fellow NFs might be able to provide it.
I'm really, really socially awkward around people I don't know well. It's like I have to literally force myself to talk. I've been told before that I should just try and be myself, what do I have to lose if someone doesn't like me? The thing is, if I say something stupid I think about it for days.. it tortures me. It's constantly in the back of my mind and it makes me feel really bad about myself.
I don't know what to do. I can't make friends because I avoid talking to people whenever I can. I think some people see me as a snob, but I'm just shy.
I get really nervous about job interviews and have never had a job before because I suck at trying to convince someone that I'm a good person for the position. I hold myself to these high standards but I never match up to them. I hold other people to those standards as well, but somehow I'm always worse than them.