I've read on here that a persons various functions are utilised simultaneously rather than individually. However I feel that for me, particularly perhaps because of my personality type, I behave according to my two major functions separately. What I mean by that is that when I'm functioning in Fe I function in that alone, and then when I function in Ni I'm definitely not functioning in Fe.
Maybe its just my lack of understanding, and I am aware that the various functions are all very different from one another hence their categorisations, but I feel that ENFJ's have two distinctly different functions that are quite difficult to reconcile.
Fe is so energetic and lively, confident and vivacious. It's effective and engaging; people are influenced by me.
Then I get sucked down into the often melancholic gully-trap of Ni that puts theories and concepts to the forefront of my mind that challenge all the social norms Fe is so smooth with, and starts randomly questioning and challenging the stupidity of all the ridiculously futile things people pursue in everyday life.
Then when I flick back into Fe I have to work had to recover all the lost ground by acting out the farce again and saying 'sorry dont mind me don't know where all that shit came from' etc etc.
Don't get me wrong, there are those lovely moments when it all comes together and I am able to relate my inarticulate Ni insights in the confident and expressive manner of Fe to (eg) a big group of strangers.
Yet, most of the time I feel that when one switches on the other flicks off. And if something occurs that I need to process through Ni I will literally shut off on the spot from people and go into this dream - and everyone's like 'What's wrong with you? Still there?' but I can't help it.
And I feel like most days are Fe days so everyone has this perception of me as that real friendly guy who knows everyone, but then they just get disapointed another day when I don't even notice them because I'm having a big old Ni day.
Does anyone else ride on this seesaw?
Am I not functioning as efficiently and productively as I could be?