That feels right. Your description, I mean.Thinkers almost always have that layer of detachment, even when we're trying to be warm and fuzzy. It's like having to detach from the feeling to express the thought clearly, then maybe being conscious of adding the feeling back in.
Does your music help you connect more directly to your feeling center? I find that my feelings become more integrated when I am creating art and being honest about my more tender and fearful feelings. When I express them as feelings rather than detach from them.I have deep feelings, too, though I'm not always walking around being aware of them. Sometimes I get that overwhelming feeling you were talking about, of like almost not being able to handle the idea of some injustice happening--stuff like animal abuse, intentional cruelty of any kind, people getting hurt as a result of other people's stupidity or reckless choices. And I sometimes think that I wouldn't be able to handle feeling like that all the time. I need the rationality to keep me sane. I need a step back. I have also noticed that unless something has happened that has stripped away my barriers (sometimes bouts with depression, etc), my strong feelings will come out as thoughts. I might feel something strongly, but I'll express it as a thought. I find with a lot of thinkers with feely tendencies, they are unaware just how much they're still coming across as thinkers. They'll always give themselves away in presentation. When I'm feeling more "raw," I can express my feelings more directly. But it's not my usual mode.
Yes! But fun, isn't it?This is hard stuff to find words for!