I've always felt this way also....I particularly find "sexy" to be dull. Any woman can be sexy. I'd rather be interesting. When I was a kid, "weird" was more of a compliment than "pretty". I find myself as an adult more interested in appearing unique than attractive. My mom pointed out once that half of my clothes create "interesting" silhouettes as opposed to showing off my form; she was like, "You have such a tiny waist & you hide it in all these weird shapes".
This is all sooo enneagram 4 though....
LOL This was exactly what I was thinking as I read the above...
INFP 4w5 so/sp
I've dreamt in my life dreams that have stayed with me ever after, and changed my ideas;
they've gone through and through me, like wine through water, and altered the colour of my mind.
- Emily Bronte
I did when I was severely depressed and was deep in my eating disorder. I was distraught by the fact that I needed to walk by mirrors; I was afraid of looking into them. I had a sort of social anxiety because I didn't want people to see my body.. it just made me so anxious in public. I absolutely hated myself, and I didn't know how I could stop.
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Originally Posted by ThatGirl
holy shit am I a feeler?
if you like my avatar, it's because i took it myself! : D
I think we all can have days. I have felt it lately and it's corresponding with the end of a relationship. Intellectually I know I'm not ugly. But I am a perfectionist and I'm just not up for interacting with the opposite sex at all, and I'm not feeling chipper. Somehow that's making me feel un-cute. But eh, eff it, I really don't care and life is otherwise good.
I've always assumed I'm ugly and need to make up for it by keeping up the façade of a positive attitude. I've got a fantasy of some stranger walking into the room and telling me, "You're the most beautiful person I've ever seen." I'm not holding my breath, though.