Anyway, the last time my self-control failed in a spectacular way, it scared me and everyone who was there really, really badly. If only myself and the person I blew up at had been there, I would have still been freaked out my own level of emotion, but I wouldn't have felt bad otherwise. To say the person provoked me and deserved my response would be an understatement. The other people, unfortunately my kids and teenage brother, did not deserve to see that, though and I regret it deeply that they did.
I just had no idea I still harbored that much anger. I think Fe is kind of tricky that way. Sometimes it takes a trigger similar to whatever generated the original emotions in order to bring them to our consciousness. I don't know.
I may have said this earlier in the thread, but the level of emotion I feel on the inside- nobody wants to see that. Really. And it normally takes a lot out of me to get them out anyway, so everybody wins if I mostly keep them safely tucked inside where they belong.