Ok, let me explain this. It just seems like I'm not reserved (nearly reserved) enough to be an INFP. If you give me an inch I will blurt out my opinion. Every hour or so I feel the need to go over to another office just to see what's going on. I have the attention span of a house fly. Also, I LOVE LOVE LOVE to meet new people. I love talking to them and getting to know them. I love leaving that night and knowing I will never see them again. A moment of intense connection.
The problem is with making friends. It is VERY difficult for me. Lots of people knwo me, have heard things from me they might think are deep or special (but the truth is, I'm just being real) or....unfortunately....oversharing. Lots of people have talked with me, had a drink with me. But regularly, I hang out with no one. I have no one who I would go to if I were in trouble or hurting and I don't think anyone would come to me. It's not that people don't like me, or that I get in fights, or that I don't like people (ok, sometimes I don't) but I never take it deeper (mostly for fear of being pushy or unwanted) and they neve do (which just sort of confirms that fear). So mostly I'm alone. And I wonder if I'm so social when I meet new people because I'm lonely, or because I'm extroverted. And I also wonder if I'd go out more if I didn't have the internet. But I think if I could talk to just one person after another I could talk to people most of the day and love it.
I also talk in 'Me' and 'I' talk a lot. But of course! You can't claim understanding for any experience except your own! I worry that people percieve me as selfcentered and high strung. I have relatively low self-confidence so I wonder if that makes me appear much more introverted than I am.
If I am an ENFP as I strongly expect, am I a bad ENFP to not be propperly socially able? I seem equally fixated on being what I *am* as the best self and being what I *ought* to be.