A couple notes:
"feeling weak and overwhelmed because of it."
Yeah, a lot of people take my kindness and sensitivity for weakness. It's not. I'm as tough as nails when I need to be. I bet you are too.
"But its also aggravated when one is very isolated, too."
Yes, I am isolated, and it gets a little weird in here. Working on that though. Just gotta make some new friends here in my new city. I've made so many friends here on this board though, and it came at a perfect time in my life. I think it will help me IRL. Actually I know it will.
"the thing about the drug use ... seems to me like it is keeping you out of practice with being yourself, with all the feeling and depth therein."
Brilliant. And great food for thought. Thanks.
"You aren't doomed."