Because I always have one foot in the future...well, basically I don't know how not to be perpetually mindful of potential and 'what dreams may come'... and so much of my Life's journey has been/is learning how to assess *now* properly. I have wrongly, inaccurately assessed 'what is' in a person (place, thing, noun)... because I'm factoring in a vision of a future that has not happened and I have been burned for such 'foolishness' (my last relationship.) Without even knowing I was doing it... I was assigning qualities to him that were merely 'potentials' as if they were 'actualities' or at the very least 'soon to be actualities' <-and while in truth this system has for the most part served me well... it went quite wrong in the instance I'm speaking of and with it being a significant relationship as opposed to idk an art project or something... I admit I've been a bit shaken by it all. Will I change though...? Only time will tell.
But the use of the word 'investment'...this word I don't relate to as it pertains to relationships and I'm not entirely sure why. Perhaps I should try to frame things in this way.
edit: oh god. Due to some recent discussion on the site I thought I better get my butt back here and qualify the whole 'investment' thing. When I say this I mean that I don't view individuals as commodities. If I could somehow know for certain that some relationship would end sooner rather than later for some (unknown) reason...I can't see that as changing the way I would behave so much...or changing the amount of myself I poured into the relationship. I don't measure things the same way others might. If I'm devoted...if I become devoted then that is for Life...regardless of physical proximity, death..whatever.