One of the talents of NFPs is that they are good at brainstorming and generating ideas, right?
Well...I'm wondering if any of my NFP-colleagues here find it hard to do that when in a group. Especially, one that has like social importance to you. I've noticed that I'll keep quiet and not even bother brainstorming, when we're like planning a surprise party for one of our friends in the group. Or a bachelorette party, or whatever. At work, I'll only join in the brainstorming, if I'm explicitely asked to do so. And then well..I tend to go so overboard they look baffled at me. I currently did that at my new job..the *only* job ever where I've actually felt safe to do this and where it was sorta appreciated, even if they got feedback like tenfold the amount of what they were looking for.
And I wondered why..why is this? Then I realized it's coz most people think I'm so weird and random they just stare at me like I'm bizarre and attention whoring, when I brainstorm. It's not appreciated socially, ime. Also, the process includes tossing out crazy useless and impractical ideas as well as the occasional gem...which makes you look ditzy or unprofessional or plain childish. So I don't bother and suppress it most of the time.
I noticed that I value my personal connections too much, especially in a large group of people which have varying degrees of intense connection with me, to risk exposing the brainstorming crazy me. Also, if I'm forced to do it without feeling comfortable, I feel put on the spot and it makes me suck at it, bigtime. Kinda like stagefright. Not to mention that if you join in the brainstorming, you become part of the conflict that automatically arises as everyone wants their ideas to be realised and approved. I just rather stay out of that hornets nest alltogether.
On the other hand...I think it's sad that the one of the few things I do actually have potential for is something that rarely is appropriate enough for me to stretch my legs and actually do something with it.
Anyone else out there that has this experience?