On top of that, I tried to have a relationship (long distance, but very heart felt from my side of things) with some one, only to have it fail dismally, and am currently facing bankruptcy. Devastion on all fronts, plus I had to move from the city to a small out back town, so I'm a bit lonely and miserable (at least today) to boot. It's difficult times. Nothing I can't handle really though, but everything, my beliefs, my possesions, even friendships got wiped out in one foul sweep.
Oddly enough, it was the failed relationship that really devasted me. Every thing else I took on the chin up until then, but everything now, just seems so meaningless ATM.
So I'm reconstructing every thing from the ground up, and yeah, it's a very painful process.