Have any of you NFs just gotten tired of all these feelings? Particularly anger. I forbid myself to feel anger. Even when I am overwhelmed by it, I push it back unless I have an extremely legitimized reason, like she hurt my dog or she offended me and I thought she was a good friend. Partially, I know my anger is toward my past and not at the present situation and at the present person. I suppose this is a personal distinction and it is something I have learned in the past year, not to blame the current people in my life for something someone from the past did. But sometimes I wonder if that makes me unrealistic in my portrayal of feelings. Like, I should express this anger instead of rationalizing it away. The lines are blurry for me; I don't know. My friend recently told me that I confuse people. She is either talking about my lack of emotions or my inconsistency with emotions. When I feel hurt, I feel the need to hide it because it gives the other person tremendous power and me a lost of control. Should I be doing that? I guess, the problem is I don't know how to show proportional anger and proportional hurt. It is either extreme or completely withheld within me. There is no middle ground. It is either I don't care; It doesn't matter. or :steam: I hate you. You are Evil.
What do you think?