Internally i'd think " well if it's important to them to have that physical and I do appreciate it too just that it's awkward but i'll just open my arms and wrap them around them." As if I was preparing myself mentally for a hug but it's simply cause it's a tad strange to me to hug, cuddle and be all affectionate.
"your so sweet" or when they ask why I like them which puting it into words makes me feel really awkward and a tad bit uncomfortable as it's just like with hugging. It's having to show affection which makes me feel really awkward.
This may sound strange... but for quite a while I had the hardest time
saying " I love you" to even people that i've known for years *BFFs*.
Close Family's fine but Friends it was really awkward heh.
Definitely OrangeApplied I've always felt more cerebral in dealing with
physical/verbal affection. Heck yeah, I get lost to much in my inner thoughts and wonderings that have been the bane of my relationships of totally not even expressing the feeling I would be feeling. Cause I can surprisingly be nurturing I just don't like it to be forced because of expectation or manipulation.
Baby's and animals always bring out my more sentimental and quietly affectionate ways. I'll cuddle with them and everything *more cats but little babehs are easy to cuddle with too.*
She's an extravert heh but a middle aged one who balanced herself out a tad*
I am a very slow mover in relationships, I don't like cuddling too fast too soon. I can do it but I'll feel tremendous pressure to hurry an internal examination of how I feel about the physical touch/cuddling/stuff like that.
It seems just as I internally start to feel okay with with everything internally which is not an overnight process. Alot of evaluation/reflection has to happen of how I feel? is this heady in the right direction? Would I be comfortable cuddling? So on and so on.
Liking the responses , thanks everybody.