Do you ever feel like you are very weird, very odd, and if you let people see what you are really like you will never be accepted or even be shunned?
YES YES OH GOD UNBELIEVABLY YES
Do you find you hold parts of yourself back from others, understanding they will find them unacceptable?
Yes. I try to test out what I can do/say around certain people, make sure we trust each other, then go from there. Also, my INTP friend always says she wishes I would speak my mind more often. I'm never ever bluntly honest with people, I always gotta sugar coat it.
Do you hold back parts of yourself in fear of overwhelming others with your emotions, your intensity, your depth of thought or feeling, or your insights they may not "get"? (I could see all of these things from the different NF flavors)
Yeah. I tell myself I shouldn't feel ashamed about silly Ne thoughts but I always end up embarrassing myself.
*cue wavy flashback*
One time I was with 2 friends in Starbucks, a guy that I really liked and a girl I didn't know real well. In the car we were talking about paintball, and at s-bux I looked up at the ceiling (there were all these pipes up there) and imagined tiny people playing paintball. My friends started giving me this look: O_o and asked me what the hell I was doing, so I nonchalantly told them about it. But their reaction made me feel really embarrassed. And I was on the phone with the guy a few weeks later and he brought it up again (not being mean about it), and I was like hush up I'm still embarrassed about it.
Can you describe what your "core", your truest self feels like? What face would you choose to show the world if you knew that you would be unconditionally accepted for everything that you are?
My truest self? Today I'll say I'm a wad of contradictions held together with glue. I've got shiny, colorful little pieces with ugly, messed-up crud right next to them. I wish I didn't have to worry about people not being able to see the shine because of the shit. But I kind of want people to see all of it. If you want the good parts of me, you gotta understand the bad parts of me. They're inseparable. But don't worry, I'll clean it off as best I can before I hand it to you.
That made no sense. Sorry guys.