It's strange... there's a week when I am high on energy and joy and then comes a day when I feel like someone goes with the vacuum cleaner behind my back and sucks in all the energy that's left, while the joy transforms to the weird idea of anger... feelings all these feelings everywhere!
She knows what the problem is. The situation is really all my fault, because I do care for her and enjoy her company I accept her invitations. She thinks this means that I'm over it, but I end up feeling like shit for days after spending time with her. I need to think of the future and pass this invitation and all future ones up. I really hate letting go of people who mean something to me.