I'm really run-down by people right now and need to get away from everyone to introvert for a while. The last week of May I get to go to a cabin in the mountains with my partner, but we will be interrupted mid-week by his family to do repairs on the place.
I always feel the irony of feeling frustrated by people, because I am also people. It feels like so many take as much as possible, so you have to constantly make boundaries to protect yourself and I get soooooo tired of it. I don't think that I do that, but I contribute to negativity in different ways. I was in the store the other day in a hurry because I forgot one thing for dinner and it was already cooking, so I asked a sales boy where it was and he said "Isle 15", which is all I needed to know, so I took off. He kept talking in detail about where to turn the corner and ended with a sarcastic "have a nice day". I guess I owed him five more minutes of attention or something. He probably went home annoyed at "people", but so did I because it can feel like everyone wants a piece of me. Also, I think it is a "take as much as you can get" culture. I also feel like people don't believe me when I've been horribly hurt by others. I'm supposed to always be pleasant and just think the best. Well I do that and get emotionally pummeled by people who cross the line. It isn't just my subjective perspective, but there are people who have objectively crossed the line. It's even people no one would believe would do it because they are more credible than me because they can appear more objective and tend to be male. Oh well. That's my rant.
If I could have complete control over my circumstances I would definitely live off the grid, far away in the mountains with one trusted person. People are generally just too much to deal with.
The first man to raise a fist is the man who's run out of ideas. H.G. WELLS
The first principle is that you must not fool yourself, and you are the easiest person to fool. FEYNMAN If this is monkey pee, you're on your own.SCULLY