Shock made me numb, but that is slowly transforming into the deepest, most visceral anguish a man can experience. As each second goes by I feel myself falling further into the black fog again. I don't know if I will ever find my way out.
I feel lost. I don't know what I'm doing or where I'm going in life and at the moment feel like curling into a ball and sleeping forever. I currently don't have any great passion or joy but am working to find it