Happy, peaceful, and hopeful that things are going to become beautiful for both myself and my ex. He is rebuilding his life and making plans for personal and social progress just like I am. I've made some friendship connections that are touching my lonely, isolated core. I think the pain and courage to make a change and end our marriage will be positive in the long run. Gawd it is painful and complex to make that choice, but so far in life it has resulted in better partnerships for everyone. Even though I struggled with some instinctual, deep limbic, animalistic anger in this relationship, I am at complete peace in idea space and understand that we just live out our lives and most pain that people cause one another is collateral damage from our own attempt to survive our lives. It's all good in the end.
The first man to raise a fist is the man who's run out of ideas. H.G. WELLS
The first principle is that you must not fool yourself, and you are the easiest person to fool. FEYNMAN If this is monkey pee, you're on your own.SCULLY