Not great, but seeing the benefits of depression to make it extremely easy to let go of all expectations in life and take significant risks. Also my body feels ravaged by a couple of days of intense muscle cramping, but I took enough meds to not feel it directly. I also can't resolve in my mind how fairly decent and even nice people can have moments of being amazingly cruel in what they choose to say. It's also confusing if/when they choose to stop doing it. It's great if they stop, but realizing they had control over it in the first place almost makes it worse somehow.
The first man to raise a fist is the man who's run out of ideas. H.G. WELLS
The first principle is that you must not fool yourself, and you are the easiest person to fool. FEYNMAN If this is monkey pee, you're on your own.SCULLY