i am having an awesome moment of... joy, joy is a good word for it. my ex posted pictures of my son on fb... publically... for the first time since i left. he has grown so freaking much, and he has a new bike.... and a mohawk.. i know exactly which kid he got that idea from. god damn it i can't stop smiling - my heart is melting like it hasn't done in forever. i know it's just some pictures, but.. this is the first moment of genuine happiness i've had in very long time.