I feel like just stopping everything and crying. Grieving. Not for anything in particular. But for everything. Cleansing. I feel like growling out one of those animal-like battle cries, as loud as I can make it. I feel angry. I feel lost. Honestly, I feel beyond irked and ready to take on whatever comes my way. I want time to myself. Which I've had, to an extent. But, more than that, I want to stand up again and show myself that I'm not going to quit. And continue on with what I aim to do. Most of all, I miss my friends and I feel heartsick. But, even if I can't visit them, they are there, supporting me, just as I support them.
I have no idea who I am. All I can say is let's rock hard.
Sore, particularly where I got my tetanus shot yesterday, my arm is really sore. Though, I can't be too angry about it, because if I hadn't been trimming the trees in the back yard with a rusty box cutter I wouldn't have accidentally cut my hand, and then I wouldn't have had to go get the shot. I could have put it off for another couple of years at least. So, yes, I'm sore.
"I have never in my life envied a human being who led an easy life; I have envied a great many people who led difficult lives and led them well."
better than last night, a little achey, but pretty okay and thankful for some good things. I've been getting a bit of negative feedback lately, but I didn't try to avoid it, so it is just life.
The first man to raise a fist is the man who's run out of ideas. H.G. WELLS
The first principle is that you must not fool yourself, and you are the easiest person to fool. FEYNMAN If this is monkey pee, you're on your own.SCULLY