Horrible. So many things to say I could scream, but I wouldn't dare tell anyone. Can't afford to. Can't let go.
I feel terrible. I feel like I should be so much better to people. People used to accuse me of being too cold, too hard to read. Ha! Nowadays I wear a bad mood everywhere I go. Even if I felt like I could talk to someone, who would listen? Who would want to? I wouldn't want to talk to me either.
It has been so long I don't even know how anymore. The only thing I'm capable of anymore is alienating others. I might as well wear a shirt saying "Fuck off" everywhere I go. My mood says as much without saying a word.