If I were a V8 engine, today for me feels as if I've only been running on 4 cylinders. I feel like all functions have been at half power today. Some good sleep is what I need and I do feel tired and sleepy. I haven't had a day feeling like this in a long time.
Oh the usual, soul crushing lack of clarity on my need for a job and where I should aim. My complete self-loathing that has never gone away since I was a small child....
But on the bright side, I can give myself an internal ulcer trying to hold that back when reminding myself what a self-indulgent whiny fuck it makes me. So I ignore it and carry on regardless.
Other people have real problems afterall.
'Consciousness is not simply a sensory-perceptual affair, a matter of mental imagery, as the contents of our mind would have us believe. It is deeply enmeshed with the brain mechanisms that automatically promote action readiness' - Jaak Panksepp