I'm feeling low today. I feel vulnerable telling you this.
On one hand I am pleased I am allowing myself to feel low, and I have noticed that my thoughts are negative but with low energy.
I am slightly enjoying feeling low and I know that if I enter into this feeling it will change. I am tempted to try to change it right now. I am tempted to ask you to help me change it, but it's kind of like a deep quiet. Perhaps I am protecting myself, from what I don't know.
Yes, I don't know why I am feeling low, and normally I would seek out the answer but I feel this low feeling wants to be heard. It wants to be heard rather than understood. So I am listening.
I am finding it hard to listen as my temptation is to fix things. So with every beat of my heart I am somewhat painfully listening to me feeling low.
I am noticing myself reading the forums and I have no impulse to reply. It's as though my intellect is not responding. Instead I am in touch with my feelings. I don't want to describe them, rather I just want to feel them.
I almost feel like crying, the feelings welling up from my tummy, through my chest and pouring out of my eyes.
I remember in a Gestalt Group the therapist crying for me. I was totally amazed that someone would cry for me. I knew it was an important moment and I have never forgotten it.
So feeling low is like listening to a part of myself that I usually elide with thinking. But I guess below the thinking this part of myself is there unseen by me. A tender almost non-verbal part that more touches the world rather than understands it. Yes, it is very non verbal. And being non verbal is a little scary, how can I communicate it to others? How can I bring it out to play? Could I perhaps dance this feeling, this feeling low? I suspect dancing it would transform it into something else. But I could always go back to the feeling and watch the transformation. I suspect it will take me out of the world I am familar with.
So here I am, feeling low in the sunshine thinking of dancing.
terrible i got yelled at about how i don't go out enough, but if i do go out it would be to go drinking and i don't have a dd so there. than i got yelled at because my dad can't find the cheese slicer I have no clue how the second things my fault
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