Sad, mad, lonely, empty. I'm sick of living a lie.
I got my smile from the sunshine,
I got my tears from the rain.
I learned to dance when I saw a tiger prance,
And a peacock taught me to be vain.
A little owl in a tree so high,
He taught me how to wink my eye.
I learned to bill and coo from a turtledove,
And a grizzly bear taught me how to hug.
But the guy that lived two caves from me,
He taught me how to love.
Burned out on my job. I can't take the redundancy any more. I'm beginning to despise the masses. I can't promote to a different postitiion until October. I'm fearful I will quit by then. I want to quit right now! I also hate that it takes money to live and do what I want to. I'm upset that I've allowed myself to take a position beneath my skill level.. but I can't walk away from the travel benefits! AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!
Man suffers only because he takes seriously what the gods made for fun - Watts
I realized something the other day. I was walking through the urban forest to the beach, sunshine was coming through from the west, the trees were glowing. Lush plantlife was everywhere. It was truly beautiful, and I was filled with a sense of joy. I welled up with tears. I could feel the perfection of the world, that everything was in it's right place, that the earth was deeply, spiritually, profoundly good.